bird poop

so i noticed this morning my car is victim to much a bird poop. gross i know.

but that means that spring is here, y’all.

yesterday was the first true warm day in a while and it felt amazing.

birds invaded the front yard. we leaf blowed the front yard on sunday, unveiling a yard full of untouched goodness. birds spent the day picking and flying; flying and picking — new life, new breath.

i’m doing better – i’m thankful for grief and sorrow. i’m thankful this is not our home. i’m thankful for community. for true community. not just holidays with presents and food, but community – where you have the same outlook on life, the same beliefs, you understand each other and you love each other through the mess.

and it is messy. life is one big pile of mess. sin. are we surprised? is this another flaw of us? that we truly believe life should be without mess? did we think we’d live this life unscathed? no. and i’m thankful i’m learning this at 28 years old. because i know some of you have felt unbearable pain before you were 16 years old, before you were 10 years old. some of you stay in a constant state of pain.

but there is hope. and you need only accept the hope. let it soak into your heart. believe in something bigger than you. it’s scary at first, but what do you have to lose? honestly? is life going your way with YOU in control? like, have you honestly figured it all out?

no. don’t kid yourself.

so why did i wake up this morning at start this blog post? because i like looking back at my honest thoughts. it’s humbling to be real with strangers on the internet, sure. but it’s more about the freedom i feel when i’m honest with myself.

the sunrise was a painting this morning. heaven and earth met with strokes of cloud beauty. this week i will focus on beyond this life. i will feel each and every moment with an eternal perspective. xo thanks for reading.


reading truth, yes she does.

with every birthday comes the realization of two things.

one) i’m one year older.

two) i can have an even better year this year. how can i make that happen?

goals. that’s right, folks. goals are what keep life spicy.

i had a great birthday this past weekend. spent lots of time with family & friends. speaking of friends . . .


i have real life friends. i have instagram friends. i have twitter friends. i have grocery store friends. i have facebook friends. i have snapchat friends. i have blog friends.

about two years ago, i met an awesome girl on twitter. she was a runner AND loved loves jesus. we tweeted (yes, it’s a verb) back and forth for a while. i’d say after month of tweeting, we became twitter friends. yep. she was in the twitter friend group.

for a while, she had been hashtaging (again, this is a verb) #shereadstruth. i thought it was so clever. i read truth too! & i loved how she was talking in third person.

one day i accidentally i clicked on the hashtag & realized she wasn’t referring to herself. she was part of a community of ladies who love the Lord & share & discuss ideas from an online, interactive devo!!shereadstruth

holy smokes! i was so IN. so PUMPED. i joined the #shereadstruth community about a year ago. it’s so easy peasy & FUN.

if you have the youversion bible app, you can search She Reads Truth & all the reading plans will pop up. i like to read along with the rest of the community so that i can stalk people & find out what the heck i just read & what the heck it really means, but you can literally read any plan you want at ANY time.

i’ve been on my journey with christ since i was 12 years old. so i’m going on 14 years – but it’s been different for the past five years. it’s been more intentional. i’m not perfect. i don’t try to be. i don’t have quiet devo times with God everyday. i don’t journal everyday. i really have a hard time disengaging from the world & spending legit time with the Lord. i struggle with taking time for my relationship with God. there are plenty of reasons for this.

sometimes i avoid devo’s because i could fail.

but how can you fail at spending time with someone? ugh i don’t know. i guess i rationalize like this:

i could learn nothing. i could read a verse & have no clue what it means. i could pray & say the wrong thing. i could start journaling & complain about everything going on. i could start thinking about what i should have for lunch. i think of all the ways my devo could go wrong & i avoid it.

#shereadstruth is a starting point for me. i don’t have to do anything fancy & i can’t fail at it. like i said, if i don’t understand a verse or want a new perspective on what i just read, there are literally thousands of other women reading the same thing as me, on the very same day. i can stalk the #shereadstruth hashtag on instagram & immediately find other ladies who are spending time with jesus at the same exact time. it’s powerful. it’s a connection i can’t really explain.

i have a goal: to do the next reading plan with she reads truth. & guess whattttt. the next plan starts TODAY. whoohoo

let’s do it together? we don’t have to be perfect. we don’t have to pretend like we have it all together. we can be real & vulnerable & learn more about that pretty fantastic guy jesus.

starting Nehemiah | Day 1 | Trouble & Shame tonight. who’s with me??