bird poop

so i noticed this morning my car is victim to much a bird poop. gross i know.

but that means that spring is here, y’all.

yesterday was the first true warm day in a while and it felt amazing.

birds invaded the front yard. we leaf blowed the front yard on sunday, unveiling a yard full of untouched goodness. birds spent the day picking and flying; flying and picking — new life, new breath.

i’m doing better – i’m thankful for grief and sorrow. i’m thankful this is not our home. i’m thankful for community. for true community. not just holidays with presents and food, but community – where you have the same outlook on life, the same beliefs, you understand each other and you love each other through the mess.

and it is messy. life is one big pile of mess. sin. are we surprised? is this another flaw of us? that we truly believe life should be without mess? did we think we’d live this life unscathed? no. and i’m thankful i’m learning this at 28 years old. because i know some of you have felt unbearable pain before you were 16 years old, before you were 10 years old. some of you stay in a constant state of pain.

but there is hope. and you need only accept the hope. let it soak into your heart. believe in something bigger than you. it’s scary at first, but what do you have to lose? honestly? is life going your way with YOU in control? like, have you honestly figured it all out?

no. don’t kid yourself.

so why did i wake up this morning at start this blog post? because i like looking back at my honest thoughts. it’s humbling to be real with strangers on the internet, sure. but it’s more about the freedom i feel when i’m honest with myself.

the sunrise was a painting this morning. heaven and earth met with strokes of cloud beauty. this week i will focus on beyond this life. i will feel each and every moment with an eternal perspective. xo thanks for reading.



lately, i’ve been in the winter funk and ain’t nobody gonna change that. i’ve been trying though – really trying to be grateful through this season. it happens every year, so i really shouldn’t surprised. my husband? well, he’s learning. i keep telling him: “you married me. all of me. even this season of me.”

he’s so sweet and reminds me that “yes, he did marry me.”

this kinda stuff just doesn’t phase him.

god knew i need a man unfazed by my craziness. ha. that made me laugh. bc it’s so true.

here are some pictures from last weekend. not sure the reputation maryland has throughout the country (or even the world!) but we are basically a four-season kinda state with water & woods everywhere you turn. i love it here. it’s so dang beautiful. enjoy!

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blizzard jonas

grant & i have spent 54 consecutive hours together (friday @12:30pm to sunday @6pm) & we are still going strong! we have watched plenty of netflix, i’ve learned a few games (sequence & speed) & crushed grant at both. we’ve baked cookies, made homemade pizza, homemade pesto, homemade alfredo, boiled rice, boiled pasta, baked potato chips, done hours of homework (grant), danced in the living room, spent morning devotionals together, watched tons of youtube, prayed for the power to stay on, laughed with delirium, went tubing down our front yard into the woods, went for a walk to the beach, almost fell into the icy bay (alicia). it’s been a memorable blizzard. i’m thankful we didn’t lose power & went kept morale high at camp cardwell. please enjoy our blizzard tubing fun from today. xo


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rachy gets married!

i’ve had the privilege of being friends with rachael since we were in elementary school. she has been apart of the biggest milestones in my life & i’m forever grateful for her friendship.

& she got married last weekend! to the love of her life, pat. it was a classically BEAUTIFUL wedding. i hope you enjoy the pictures, although they do not do it justice.

this was smack dab in the middle of classic southern maryland, surrounded by the patuxent river with an elegant barn setting. rach is actually the first person to have her wedding on this property – & she absolutely nailed it.

being that my wedding is 8 days away, i was in hyper soon-to-be bride mode, taking notes & watching how she did things. my favorite part was seeing how supportive her family & pat’s family were. they were so willing to help & never wanted rachael to stress about a thing. it was beautiful to watch.


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so happy for rach & pat!! ❤ can we all agree that rach was the most beautiful bride ever?

ps: if there is one picture i regret not getting, it’s the picture of her jimmy choo’s. what kinda blogger am i?! ugh. they were magical.


all photos are mine & were taken on my iPhone 6s.

location: cage farms; st. leonard, maryland

rachael’s dress: alfred angelo

bridemaids dresses: alfred angelo

karaoke in the car! (vlog!)


grant & i love hiking & love the beach. thankfully, maryland has a ton of parks that combine hiking + beach. it’s awesome.

this weekend we set aside our laziness (aka: watching netflix all day), packed up the car with towels & water & headed to the beach! we chilled, cooled off in the beautiful bae – i mean bay 😉 it was a great day.

once we had enough sunshine, we headed back to my place to relax before church. like i mentioned before, we really like binge watching netflix. this year alone we’ve gone from the office to friends to now, parks and rec. after watching a few episodes (SO EXCITING, I KNOW) – it was time to leave for church.

the topic this weekend at church: friendship. it was powerful & super convicting. it’s always cool how God will whisper reminders throughout the day, all alining with the same idea. earlier, at the beach, grant & i talked about our friendships – with other people & with each other. & then God really showed us that we are on the right page about where we are heading & what friendships to really pour into.

after church, i needed to get a bridal shower gift for my long time friend, kelly.


so off to the closest mall we go! & just so you know – us “country-folk” must travel up to an hour to get to the closest mall. so you can imagine how hangry i got on the ride to the city. lol. or maybe you can’t imagine. just ask grant 😉

first things first, we had to get some food! so we chose whole foods for something quick & delicious! (SUSHI!! for me – – BURGER!! for grant)

then we went to anthropolgie, where the BRILLIANT kelly was registered! have you ever been to anthro?? you MUST go – – even if to just look around. it’s the most adorable place EVER. ugh.
on the way home, i thought it would be fun to document our car karaoke. there’s not a car ride where grant & i don’t sing – – it’s completely normal for us.

life is normal with grant. love him so much. {press play below}

a fancy date!

lucky i’m in love with my best friend! we had a nice cute little afternoon in chesapeake beach – which i always love exploring with bae.

this is the spot grant first told me he loved me! it will always be a special place for us.

i love grant’s spontaneity – – he leaned over in the middle of church & whispered “what if we go to rod n reel for lunch?”

i melt.

(press play below!)

thanks for watching!! xo

6 month anniversary!! (+ video!)

{flashback!!} december 30, 2014:

6 months ago, grant took me to my favorite mexican restaurant. we talked until the place closed. it was a frigid december night, but we didn’t want the date to end. so we walked along the boardwalk & ice skated on the frosty planks. it feels like two years ago.


june 30, 2015: for our 6 month anniversary, grant took us to camden yards to see the orioles vs rangers. being a texas fan dating a baltimore fan – this was inevitable.


i thank god every day for a man who loves jesus, loves life & loves me. he loves me so well.

check out the VIDEO (press play!)